As you know I have been dealing with the emotions and changes to my life since my sudden death and out of body experience last week and also to the coming back to the life through the wonderful care and efforts of the paramedics in the ambulance.
These past few days have been challenging, enlightening, emotional, worrying and wonderful all at the same time. I certainly have a fresh and new outlook on life, and my days are more open to ‘what ever will be will be’ attitude and I certainly look at life through a fresh set of eyes, my mind and body has been dealing with emotions maybe from this lifetime and also possibly from previous lifetimes as I continue to integrate all that happened last week. One minute I’m fine, sitting with a smile on my face as I look at the sun, the trees or whatever I’m looking at but a second later I’m in floods of tears!….Tears of sadness and tears of happiness, I know I should not look back because I cannot change the past, what happened; happened and I also cannot change the future, so whatever will be, will be!..But, you know how our ego minds work, playing tricks on us, making us look back and re-live the pain and suffering or making us fear the future, the fear that it may happen again!…Well, yeah, I am doing both from time to time. I meditate a lot, I connect with my heart, with my soul and with my divine self. I know ‘all is well’, there are no demons waiting to pounce on me in the dark of night, and,..actually, I am at peace with myself. But, after all I am living this life in this human form so I must honour that too and try to control that playful and mischievous Ego Mind and get back on track with my life here on Earth and back on track with my spiritual journey.
I did two ‘Ascended Master Channelling Sessions’ for two people in Australia today, I realised that these were the first channelling sessions since my death experience last week, and I noticed that my consciousness has shifted, my channel connected much quicker than before and the flow of energy and messages flowed so much quicker too, also I noticed much more feeling, especially in my crown chakra and heart chakra as the energy flowed and the light filled my channel with grace and ease.
So, am I the same person as I was one week ago…physically ‘yes’, mentally…hum, ‘not sure’, energetically, ‘no way’ 🙂 Life goes on and I’m continuing to learn, to evolve and to take these life experiences and use them to do good. 🙂
Well, the weekend is here again and I’m a little stuck for words, my mind is blank and I’m having difficulty thinking of ideas for inspirational posts! I guess it’s the old ‘writers block’, maybe my meditations are taking me to the point of total relaxation where absolutely nothing seems to pass through my mind…. or, maybe I just don’t have anything much to say!
This feeling of empty-ness worries me, I feel I owe you a post and when I cannot think of a subject to write about I do start to worry and I become a little anxious!…will I loose followers?, what will my friends think when I don’t post for a day?… and the anxiety becomes even worse if I don’t post for more than one day…
But then I relax and let my fingers do the walking, I introduced them to the keyboard and like magic they began to type, nothing in this post so far anyway has come from my mind, my fingers have just flowed around the keyboard doing a magical dance on the keys and this is what you’re reading right now…I have no idea of the theme, I have no idea what the title of this post will be and where the post will end up…I guess its just a few rambling words to you all, my blogging friends, friends from all around the world, friends of different races, religions, gender and age..but friends you are and I would miss not having you all in my life, you give me strength, you give me pleasure and sometimes I get to feel a sense of happiness when I hear that I have managed to help one of you get through a difficult time in your life.
For me blogging is not about finding followers, it’s not really about spirituality (although spirituality and my spiritual journey are very important to me), faith or religion…In my case its just the words and feelings from me, nothing special, just my thoughts on any given day, on any subject that I feel will bring you some joy, a post that may help you overcome a fear, guide you to a solution to a problem or maybe a video or music post that will bring a smile to your face.
Now, while I’m writing this post I too feel a sense of joy, because the words flowing from my finger tips are saying what is inside my heart, no thought has gone into these words and no pattern has been put together of the structure or the outcome, but the words are as I said from my heart, and to me that’s a great thing because I honestly believe that if we; as humans used our hearts to their full capacity of loving kindness each and every day, we would live in a world filled with love and peace…I know I cannot bring about world peace on my own through this humble blog but I do know that I can bring about change, I can make you smile, I can bring joy and a little happiness to your life even if only for the briefest moment in time, but time is the essence, time has no meaning so that smile that you have on your face right now is a blessing from God and hopefully brought to you from the words or pictures that I send you 🙂
So in essence I guess this post is about happiness, it is about loving kindness, it is about bringing about change in our lives, it is about helping others, it is about my own spiritual journey, it is about living life in the now, it is about caring, it is about humanity, it is about giving…….
Some days I sit and cry a little, I care passionately about our world, I care passionately about humanity, I care passionately about the environment and I wonder what more I can do to help those in need! Those tears then lead to meditation when I connect to my heart and I realise I can do more, do something simple, bring a smile to someones face, give thanks for what I have in my life and I feel good again, this feeling then brings about action…actions can be simple, they can be small and they can cost you nothing… but these actions will and do make a difference to someone or something in our world…so when ever you feel down…just stop…meditate, connect with your heart, give thanks for your life and give thanks for all you have in your life…this will lead you to open your eyes with a fresh view which will bring about change and you will do good, you will help someone, you will share a smile..and on and on the circle of loving kindness will go…
If we are to start making any headway towards changing our world for the better, to bring about peace, to eradicate disease and to bring about an end to poverty and starvation for millions of our brothers and sisters around the world, we will need to bring out the ‘Big Guns’
We need to start listening to each other, start to understand the other side of the story, give our compassion to others irrespective of their colour, religion or social status, forgive and forget what has gone on in the past and forge forward together as one humanity in the search of peace and in love of each other toward a common goal of life and environmental sustainability of our crops and waters and the protection of our planet, we need to build up our patience and understanding of other cultures and ways of life and most of all we need to be truthful and honest with each other.