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Trapped in Our Wounds ~ Wisdom from Mother Mary

Published 15/12/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

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My Dear Friends,

In recent times I have become aware of a deep-seated program within us that causes judgment when we become ill or have pain or struggle in some way in our lives. This program causes us to believe that there is something wrong when things don’t go the way we want or expect, when life is not all flow, harmony or joy.

When this occurs we often seek out what the problem is and wish to fix it. I have seen this so often when teaching other practitioners UR Healing and also with my clients and students, and other therapists. We often go straight to “what is wrong” and how can we “fix it”. I have also realised this belief is the very foundation of allopathic medical practices at this time.

For example, when someone develops cancer many look for the problem and how to fix it. How many times have you heard comments such as: “I do not understand how they could have cancer, they have done so much spiritual work.”

I have even had a healer friend who developed a serious illness that required emergency surgery and she felt so guilty that she stopped practicing for three years because she felt so guilty that she did not see it coming and was unable to “fix it” herself. It took her many years to forgive herself for getting ‘sick’. She had a belief that there was something wrong with her to be so sick and not heal it herself.

As I have had my shares of physical body issues recently and have experienced this need to want to know what is “wrong” with me, I went to Mother Mary and asked her about this. Basically what she told me was that while we continue to believe something is wrong with this experience and we are judging it or are in resistance to it, then we do not learn and grow from it.

Here is what she had to say:

Dearest heart, within the great schism of the human heart there are many old beliefs and programs that you carry from generation to generation of your beings. Until this consciousness is resolved with love it will continue to affect humanity.

The old belief that is held there is something is wrong when illness or pain comes to you through your experiences arising out of the attachment that humanity holds to duality – black and white, good and evil. It sits in the hearts of all the sons and daughters of God’s light that are incarnated on the Earth and until it is filled with love and the understanding that all is divine no matter the experience then nothing is resolved in the physical plane.

And is this not the journey of each and every soul in the physical plane, dear heart? To experience through the physical all that has been created in the outer bodies of light that has forgotten is divinity. This belief that all must be as the ego mind sees perfection, dear heart, is an old attachment of the human mind.

Yet the human mind has forgotten what it is and from whence it came. The human mind has forgotten its spiritual nature, the true spirit that gives it form. It has forgotten that this spirit is untouched by what it experiences on the Earth in truth and remains the eternal self. Yet it experiences many things in the physical form. Yet dear one, it is to be remembered that the physical form of matter is not the eternal self, it is finite like all that sits in the form of matter. The human mind finds this truth greatly difficult to accept due to its attachment to duality and the physical form of matter and tries to apply its duality to the eternal self.

Yes, dear one, a child falls and grazes its knee and the soul cries and feels the child’s pain. Yet the spirit watches and is the witness of this experience. The human mind wants to create a story from this experience to try and understand why the child fell, and where the pain came from. It wants the story to have no pain or trauma for this is the ideal of perfection that the human mind holds. Yet in the physical realm to have joy you must have pain because you are in the physical body and the physical body sits in the realms of matter and duality. You are in this realm to experience all things, not simply what the human mind believes you must feel and experience through its fear and need to control.

And still the spirit watches, witnesses and learns. While the soul experiences and stumbles and falls again and again in many ways.

While the soul may judge this experience and wish it not to be so and the human mind creates many stories around this and believes it all must be fixed and made into its ideal of perfection, the spirit continues to observe and be the witness as it learns and evolves through every step of the physical process.

Yet in this process the human mind becomes greatly attached to its stories and ideals, while the soul often cowers in its pain and misunderstandings of the physical journey it is experiencing. And still the spirit watches and observes and learns.

The human mind wishes to control and interfere with what it is experiencing when the experience and story is not as it wishes it to be. Then the soul believes that something is wrong and it must be fixed because the human body is not in its perfection. When this occurs the soul forgets to open its bridge to its spirit and believes it is the physical self and may become lost in its pain.

And still the spirit watches, observes, learns and grows.

It is not until the human mind and the soul remember what they are in truth and open their bridge to the everlasting spirit of light from God’s heart that they begin to understand that each experience on the Earth is simply an experience of physical matter and in each experience there is a gift of learning and growth for the spirit.

Each experience is a step in the process of coming into the Mastery of physical matter. The spirit understands to have this mastery it cannot become physical matter and forget that which it is. To have mastery of the manifestation of light into physical matter requires detachment from matter, dear heart.

It requires each being to understand that every experience offers an opportunity to learn and grow and there is no need for stories and entrapments in wounds and suffering. The human mind is asked to realise that it is a master not a victim of the human experience. When it understands this then it understands that there is never anything wrong, nothing to judge, and nothing to fix. All is in divine and perfect order as it is. Accept the experience, let go your resistance to it and wanting it to be different and then become the observer.

When you choose to create judgement and believe that your experiences are wrong or sinful then you are sitting in duality of the physical density. When you sit in this miasma you cannot be the Master, only the victim and the participator trying to control from the human mind.

When you do this you cannot observe, learn and grow. You simply become trapped in the experience and begin to carry it on your shoulders as a burden that requires action. Yet truly all it needs is to be witnessed, loved and honoured as a step in your path to Mastery.

In’easa Mabu Ishtar , Channel from Mother Mary.

Namaste Dear Friends

With Love

Always

Mark

 

Pain, Heart Ache, Tears…and More!

Published 10/10/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

 

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My Dear Friends,

It has been many, many, long weeks since I have been able to place my fingers on this keyboard, to even attempt to write my blog…Words have left me, my heart has been broken and I have been struggling to get through my days and my nights.

The love of my life, my beautiful wife has decided to leave me 😦 There is no one else involved and we are still the best of friends, she has her own spiritual journey and her own pathway to follow, and her own needs to consider, and although this decision has truly broken my heart, I also respect her and I honour her decision.

Tears, endless buckets of tears have left my eyes, washed down my face and helped wash away my pain, my heart has missed so many beats, the slightest thought, song, tv program or word seems to set me off again, my beautiful dogs have given me endless cuddles, laid by my side while I have been crying and comforted me on endless occasions over these past few weeks, helping me move on with my life.

My own spirituality, my connection to my higher self, my pathway has been called into my thoughts each and every day, I quizzed myself endlessly, asking myself why!…and Where am I going with my life!

I read your comments, see and feel the love that you share, and I’m truly honoured by your sentiment and words of love, compassion, and support.

Where do I go from here?….Honestly, I don’t yet know!

Each day is a new day, a move towards the future, and whatever that holds for me.

One piece of positive news is after many years of procrastination, I actually went to Bhutan, hiked up some of the highest mountains, visited many amazing Buddhist Monasteries and Temples, met with Lamas and Rinpoche’s, meditated in the sacred sites and touched my heart with the Buddha in one of the most amazing experiences of my life….Future post…Maybe!…Watch this space.

Namaste with Love

Always

Mark

Lost for Words!

Published 27/08/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

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My Dear Friends,

I’m just lost for words!

I have been going through one of the most challenging times of my life and honestly I’m just lost for words……

Each day, for the last few months, I have wanted to put my fingers on this keyboard and spell out my feelings, to share with you what has been going on in my life, but when i go to do so, I’m just lost for words!

I cannot seem to conjure up the words that will make the sense of what my heart has been feeling, I cannot seem to express the brokenness of my heart through words alone, only tears can start to convey how I have been feeling.

Sometimes only my lovely dogs can understand, they come to me when I’m crying, they feel my pain and without any judgement, they lie by my side, no words are needed only their unconditional love, which is ‘Always’ there for me.

I look outside to the world that surrounds me, my family, my friends, and, sometimes I, see only me…The world continues on, I am just a blip on the landscape, a soul in transition, a source of energy that moves along with the movement of time, my life is my life, yes, people care for me but it’s my life and only I am responsible for it, only I can live it, only I can find the words to continue my way….

The world continues on, I am just a blip on the landscape, a soul in transition, a source of energy that moves along with the movement of time. My life is my life! Yes, people care for me, but it’s my life, and only I am responsible for it. Only I can live it, only I can find the words to convey how I feel, only I can feel the pain, only I ,…. Only I……..

As more tears run down my cheek, and, start to wash away my pain, only I can feel the hurt inside, only I can listen to my ego, only I,…. Only I….

Today is a new day, maybe today will bring me more joy….

Only I can make a difference, Only I can take away the pain….

Only I….

Namaste with Love

Always

Mark

 

Living Life in the Present

Published 05/04/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

Paying attention to the present moment, rather than constantly getting lost in ruminative fantasies, that we learn most and can be best prepared for our lives.

Borkovec on the Present

This is a powerful passage and has a great deal of resonance with mindfulness practice.  Part of what we’re trying to do is to learn from life – but to learn, we need to be present. One definition of mindfulness is that it’s a state of mind where we can encode memories.  Mindfulness is a kind of alertness where the attention can actually absorb what is happening, moment-by-moment.

The only influence we have on the future is how well we tend to the present. By tending to what’s here and what’s now, and learning from what’s here and now, we grow in ways that should help us meet the future most effectively.

Imagining the Future: How good are we at predicting our emotional responses?

So much of anxiety is about imagining the future.  But how good are we at imagining our emotional future? How good are our predictions about how a ‘good’ or ‘bad’ event might make us feel? There is a whole body of research dedicated to these types of questions called affective forecasting.  Daniel Gilbert, the Harvard psychologist and author of Stumbling on Happiness, has become famous for this work. As it turns out, while we tend to be accurate guessing whether a particular event is likely to make us feel positive or negative, we tend to make important errors in other aspects of our predictions.  Specifically, we tend to overestimate the impact of particular emotional events.  That is, we believe that a particular event will have both a more intense and enduring effect on our emotional life.  Here is a summary of one of Gilbert’s articles:

Affective Forecasting

What is being suggested here is that we are actually more resilient than we tend to believe. We assume that we’ll have more trouble coping than we tend to have. When faced with a challenging situation, the mind quickly makes meanings and interpretations that help soften the impact and we feel better much faster than we tend to anticipate.  This is important for us to absorb.

All the Forks in All the Roads

The famous poem, The Road Not Taken, from Robert Frost:
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I–
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

It’s a lovely poem – but we want to make a different point than the one that’s usually made about this poem.  When we pay attention to our minds, it feels like we’re always coming to a fork in the road. Each decision, each uncertainty, each possibility – it seems we’re at a new fork, standing before two roads that diverge. We usually assume that one road is the right way and one road is the wrong way – and if we just think hard enough, we’ll figure out which is which.  But is this true? How many times do we truly come to fork in the road that is truly an important fork? And can we always know which is the “right” path?

Some of what mindfulness practice shows us is that there are actually fewer forks than we think and that even what seemed like a fork, in retrospect, may not be of major importance. We probably have all had that experience where we thought our lives were riding on the outcome of something specific – but later realize that it actually didn’t matter much which way it turned out.  Both roads have joys and sorrows.  Both roads have pleasure and pain and gain and loss.  Sometimes the road that seems less preferable has things to teach us we could never imagine.

Namaste with Love
Always
Mark

 

A Fresh Start To My Life!

Published 26/11/2015 by inspiringyourspirit

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My Dear Friends,

Firstly, I would like to take a moment to thank you all for your support, your kind words and your love in response to my anaphylactic shock and death experience this week 🙂 As I read through your comments, tears of joy rolled down my face as I absorbed all the love and healing energies that you sent through to me. This kindness is what our world needs so badly, this love is to be shared throughout humanity like the waves of a tsunami, waves of love, waves of kindness, waves of compassion flowing out from our hearts to all those in need around the world.

Since my heart stopped in that ambulance this week and since seeing my body lying there on that ambulance bed from above and since standing there in front of God surrounded by the ascended masters Angels and Arch Angels, my life has changed…the re-starting of my heart was an act of God, I stood there in front of him and said’ ‘I’m not coming to you today’, and immediately the ambulance man hit my chest again and re-started my heart, my blood began to pump from my heart and oxygen filled my brain…I could clearly hear all that was going on around me and whilst I was gone I could see every detail below me in precise detail, ‘Clarity of vision and clarity of hearing’ was so precise.

But today I am here, here to share my story but more importantly to try to also bring greater awareness to humanity re the importance of Allergies and the reactions like Anaphylactic Shock and what that means and how this can and does lead to death often within minutes!

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So, as I sit here today in front of my computer, I feel myself drifting away, drifting away into myself, into my heart and connecting to my soul, this has been a very emotional experience for me, I start to cry for no reason at all, other than to cry in gratitude for my life, for being here and for the chance to live another day….But, I am a lucky one, I have been given another chance at my life, I have been spared so now I must do my best to bring about greater awareness as to the effects of food allergies. I am no expert only to say that for over 50 years of my life I have had ‘NO’ food allergies whatsoever. Two years ago; one evening my lip started to swell up for no reason, and it went down again after a couple of hours, no real discomfort only strange looking!…A few days later my tongue started to swell, it got so big it felt like I would choke as I was finding it difficult to breathe 😦 I was given an antihistamine tablet which started to work within minutes and eventually my tongue shrank back down to its normal size. This happened a couple more times over the following weeks and we tried to find any connections to food and to drinks that may have caused these reactions…but nothing was the same! Different times of day or night, not connected in time to eating food and different food and or drinks were consumed each time…So what could I do? Well, I went to the hospital, they gave me blood tests and an allergy skin prick test where they test you for the most common food and substance allergies like pollen, etc but nothing showed too badly, my skin did react to a couple of thinks like cat hairs and dust but nothing conclusive….

…But things started to escalate, the problems and reactions became more intense each time, my face would start to swell, my eyes to bulge, my lips and tongue swell up so big and for so long I could not go out often staying swollen for hours at a time and each time I would need to increase my doses of antihistamine tablets just to control and start to reverse the effects of the reaction!

I made another hospital appointment and this time i made sure they did a full blood workout where more items were checked and low and behold I was ‘Off the Charts’ with ‘EGGS’ and high with ‘Lobster’, and ‘Pollution, basically dust from the atmosphere’. Now, I live in China so the last one, pollution, dust in the atmosphere is expected because of the massive growth in buildings and construction here, the use of fossil fuels and who know what else in the atmosphere but in saying that , it is slowly getting better as things are proactively being done to clean up the country 🙂 But Eggs!..Who knew!…I have eaten eggs all my life, I loved eggs, they were always in our house and a part of our life.

So, why eggs?….Why now?…What can I do?…..

There was no answer, no one could tell me why all of a sudden after more than 50 years of life I suddenly became so highly allergic to eggs!…

But, the worst thing is…Do you realise how many things eggs are in?

I found myself reacting all the time, swollen lips, tongue, face, heat rashes, itchy skin, swollen fingers, etc, etc; but most often I could not see any eggs in the food I was eating…but of course; there are eggs hidden in the food, or food has been processed on the same production lines that contained eggs in another food processes. Luckily for some, food packaging has food items listed or food allergies listed…but still THOUSANDS’ of foods are not listed with allergy information and most packages just don’t tell you if eggs have been processed on the same production lines as the product you are looking at now!..So, it’s a game of chance, a game of chance that CAN AND DOES LEAD TO DEATH, take my word for it as it happened to me this week!

There are many forms of food allergies, ‘Nuts’ are probably one that we are most used to hearing about but how to we bring awareness to humanity, how do we make waiters, restaurant staff, chefs, cooks and shop assistants know how dangerous food items are and how seriously they should take this?….I know from my experience that no one in my restaurant knew about food allergies, I mad it clear to them when ordering that I could not have eggs or mayonnaise in my sandwich, I looked at my food before I started to eat; but the mayonnaise was hidden to my view, the menus did not list all items…just think about this folks….

When you go for a burger, or go to a sandwich shop ‘Does the sandwich or burger ‘ state all the facts, do they show all things that could give allergic reaction?…NO, when I go to a fresh sandwich shop i see wonderful sandwiches, baguettes, ciabatta, panini’s etc….but almost all contain mayonnaise…..and often there is no alternative, but the ‘Majority of employees working in these establishments have NO idea about allergies or the consequences of feeding you something that might just ‘KILL’ YOU!

My Dear Friends, this post is not about me, it is about the thousands that have died through Al]naphalactic shock, through food or drink consumption, through no fault of their own but through the lack of awareness, through the lack of a sense of ‘Ownership’ and ‘Responsibility’ on behalf of the ‘Food Manufacturers’, ‘Packaging Companies’, ‘Food Suppliers’, ‘Supermarkets’ and of course the Resturant and Shop Owners and their Staff….

I’m a lucky one, I was allowed another day, so please help me share this important message around the world, please translate and share if you can and let’s try to save live….because ‘ People Matter’!

Namaste with Love,

Always

Mark

 

 

Yesterday I died…Today I Live!

Published 25/11/2015 by inspiringyourspirit

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My Dear Friends,

Today I have more gratitude than ever, I am so thankful for every single aspect of my life because ‘Yesterday I Died’!

I went out for lunch during my normal working day, sat down in a local restaurant and ordered a sandwich for my lunch, I made sure that I told the waiter that I MUST not have any mayonnaise or eggs as I am highly allergic, and he assured me that was ok and took my simple order.My lunch came and I did my usual quick check inside the sandwich and all seemed to be well but after a few mouthfuls I realised something was very wrong, I started to get hot and my body was in reaction, I opened the sandwich fully only to find mayonnaise under the lettuce at the bottom of the sandwich, I quickly called the waiter and luckily I had antihistamine tablets with me so I quickly took 6, then called my wife from my mobile phone as I knew she was only a couple of blocks away from where I was having lunch. My wife arrived very quickly and immediately called an ambulance, in between the call and the ambulance arriving I went into severe anaphylactic shock!

The ambulance crew lifted me onto a stretcher and quickly got me into the ambulance, I could hear my wife telling them the problem and showing them my tablets, I was hooked up to a heart monitor, in-line drip just before the anaphylactic shock took its toll stopping my heart and I was dead…..

I could clearly see myself rise up from my body and look down on myself lying there, my wife watching me, calling to me and the ambulance man pushing adrenalin and Epinephrin into my body then starting to do CPR on my chest….

….. I was with God, surrounded by the Ascended Masters, Angels and Arch Angels, it was peaceful and I was very calm and at ease, I spoke out loud to God saying “I will not come to join you today” and when I said these words the last hit to my chest started my heart once again…

I was back…..

Into the hospital, onto a monitor, given more medication a drip of adrenaline, antihistamine and oxygen, after an hour or so I started to come around and understand where I was, my beautiful wife calling to me and holding my hand, tears of happiness in her eyes as I opened mine 🙂

I was back and intent on staying here…

Yesterday I died but today I live…..

I’m going through some serious emotions right now, my wife and I shared lots of tears together last night, tears from me; re the experience of dying, from the of the out of body experience and the coming back to life, and my wife for seeing me die and then the joy of seeing me come back to life!

My Dear Friends, life it so precious and too short, we never know when it is our time to leave this life, so please, enjoy every minute that you have, be grateful for all you have, live your life with love, with happiness and with compassion.

Namaste with Love, Always

Mark

 

 

 

 

I am this, I am that, Iot’s of Little , ‘I’s

Published 12/08/2015 by inspiringyourspirit

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My Dear Friends,

 

I was wondering how many times per day we say ‘I’ , I’,m not feeling well, I’m fed up, I dont’t agree, I don’t like that, I love you, I want that, I want this, I, I I…

The little ‘I’s, the personality is composed of countless fragments called little ‘I’s, all of which counted together form our image of ourselves.. These little ‘I’s, acting autonomously and often contradicting one other, take turns directing our personality – for example, the jealous ‘I’, the complaining ‘I’, the submissive ‘I’, the dominant ‘I’, etc. Without realising it, we can constantly take ourselves to be one of these little ‘I’s, which gives us the impression of being one, whereas we are in fact completely fragmented.

The Higher ‘I’, is the true nature of man, it is even further from his lower ‘I’ ( all of his little ‘I’s) than his essence. It gradually awakens in us as we develop our essence. this higher ‘I’ is composed of two higher parts of our being (the higher emotional center and the higher intellectual center ) which can only manifest when they receive nourishment of high quality, a nourishment that can only be provided by our essence. By purifying our lower ‘I’, our essence can develop and our higher emotional and intellectual centers can become active, allowing our higher ‘I’ to manifest.

Our Higher ‘I’ is at one with God, Source, your Higher Self, keep cultivating it and you will benefit from its awakening 🙂

Namaste with Love
Always
Mark

 

 

 

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