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Healing Your Creation Temple ~ A Meditation from Quan Yin

Published 03/03/2017 by inspiringyourspirit

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We are the Quan Yin and we wish to share with you this day our beloved sisters and brothers. We thank you for your time and energies. We offer you a Rose of Dispensation and an Elixir of Light now to support your energy to open and release all that.

Choose now to open up your heart and be in the light now. Allow the energies of the light to flow through you. Breathe in deeply now and focus on your sacral chakra.

As you open the sacral chakra, feel the light of love fill the sacral chakra now, our beloveds. Ask now for this light to lift all wounds in your sacral chakra.

We place now a yellow rose in the sacral chakra and it begins to open and grow and expand now. Open your energies and allow for this expansion to occur now, dear ones.

Speak softly to your sacral chakra and ask it to surrender to the light all the memories it holds now. It is not just about the feminine energies held in the sacral, but it also includes the masculine energies held in this sacral chakra. It is the chakra of your creation.

The sacral chakra holds the original memories of your creation and separation from Source. It is in this chakra that these memories are held for all time.

We ask you now to breathe in deeply and allow these memories to be released. If you feel any pain or discomfort in your body, we ask you to simply become aware of this and focus your love on this area as your breathe deeply in and out.

Continue with this breath for five minutes or more as you place your focus on the heart of the sacral chakra. Focus on this place within you.

The healing angels and three archangels come to you now to assist with this, as we come to hold you now in this time. Call for us now to be with you.

Where the wounds have manifested within your physical body the healing angels begin to work on this area and the organs around it, so you may feel a tingle or a pulling here. We ask you to breathe through this gently and deeply.

You may wish to tone or to sound aloud as this occurs for you, dear ones. As this healing begins to take place, know that it is also taking place on all other levels of your light body.

This sacral chakra holds many memories from all the dimensions in your multi-dimensional bodies and this clearing occurs now to assist you in your creation of Self and the life you are choosing to manifest on Earth.

We ask you now to visualise yourself in your sacral temple, your temple of creation. For some it will be a golden temple with large columns of light, for others it may be crystalline temple in its nature, and for some it will be pure white and luminous.

Choose to open and expand your heart energy in this temple and fill it with the love from your heart. Feel the energies expand now as your sacral temple becomes filled with the loving essence of your being.

The Masters and the Angels are with you to assist you with their energies and to lift your energies into a higher vibration.

You may feel this tingling through your body now in the physical. As you stand in your creation temple you see a long corridor and we ask you now to walk along this corridor.

It has many doors on both sides and as you walk you will feel called to enter these doorways. As you step inside a doorway you may see or hear other beings in this room. These are the soul aspects of your memories held in the sacral.

We ask you now to explore these rooms and doorways as you feel called. Some may feel inclined to step into many rooms and some may only wish to enter one. All is perfect for you in divine timing, dear ones.

As you open to reconnect with these memories we will help you to clear them from your sacral creation temple and restore them to God again.

Work with your souls aspects now and allow them to show you the memory they hold in this room, if they feel they need to show you. We ask you to hold the love vibration in your heart through this connection and to speak to them with love in your words and your being.

Send these soul aspects love now. Send this love to their hearts and allow them to be filled with this vibration.

Ask them now to surrender all they hold in separation memory to God, to the Source of all that is. Ask them to forgive now all that has occurred across all time, space and dimension and across all planes and on all levels.

Some of you, beloved ones, may need to call on the karmic council for release of any karma consciousness that is held over these memories. Simply call the karmic council and then ask them for karmic absolution in regard to this now. Wait for their response. We will intercede on your behalf and lift the karma to the light of God’s heart.

Many soul aspects may need to break agreements and vows or contracts they have made and we ask you to ask them if this is the case. Ask them simply, do you need to break any agreements or vows you have made. If they say yes, then do so.

When this is complete for you ask them now to release all memories and associations of their aspects in this dimension now to God and to place it all in the eternal flame of God’s heart until these aspects are standing before you in their true nature of light, in their true being, no longer hidden by the dark veils of memories and emotions. When they are in their true nature of light ask them to merge with you in your heart.

Send a rainbow bridge of light to them with love from your heart and ask them to walk across this bridge into your heart. Embrace them as they come to you with love and compassion and surrender to this process. They merge now with you back into the One heart of all that is through your heart and this divine healing process.

We ask you to remember to breathe through this process and to ask for assistance at all times from us, the Quan Yin,  and the Angels of healing that are with you during this process.

When you have completed one room of old karmic memories, you may continue down the corridor doing the same until you feel there are no more rooms you need to enter at this time.

Then continue all the way to the end of the corridor where you walk through a doorway into a chamber of healing. Stand within this chamber and a golden shower of light flows over you, surrounding you. The chamber then fills up with golden light completely and you find that you are floating in this chamber of golden light. Breathe and simply allow this process to occur.

As it does you feel your body completely give way to the energies and it makes you feel profoundly relaxed. You may even release a large sigh, as if all is released now.

Remain in this healing chamber for the time you feel is needed for you.

When you are ready to leave, continue through the door on the other side. An emissary of light is waiting for you on the other side with a robe of white and gold light to place over you.

The emissary takes you back to the main room of your creation temple and asks you to lie on the beautiful white and golden bed that is on the floor. Red roses are scattered all around this bed as you are asked to lie down.

Voices begin to sing to you now in the temple, gently at first, until they build to a crescendo. The vibration of these voices runs through every part of your body. You may at times feel like you are levitating from the bed in your temple.

Breathe now and allow this healing to occur. You may feel hands being placed upon your sacral chakra and your heart chakra, or other parts of your body. Breathe as this occurs. Breathe in the energy of healing that is being offered to you. Remain here in the temple until you feel it is complete.

At this time you may feel like toning or sounding aloud in your own language or you may simply feel like being in the quiet of your true creation nature. Allow whatever comes for you at this time, dear ones, to complete this healing.

Know that your sacral chakra is your divine creation chakra, the creation of all that you are. It assists you to be all that you are in your true nature of light. It supports you to create for yourself all you need to create on this Earth now. It is the chakra of fertile creation and manifestation. It assists you to manifest all in your life that you need to continue your journey and to walk on your path.

We love you, our beloved sisters and brothers. In faith and love, namaste to you.

In’Easa Mabu Ishtar

 

Trapped in Our Wounds ~ Wisdom from Mother Mary

Published 15/12/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

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My Dear Friends,

In recent times I have become aware of a deep-seated program within us that causes judgment when we become ill or have pain or struggle in some way in our lives. This program causes us to believe that there is something wrong when things don’t go the way we want or expect, when life is not all flow, harmony or joy.

When this occurs we often seek out what the problem is and wish to fix it. I have seen this so often when teaching other practitioners UR Healing and also with my clients and students, and other therapists. We often go straight to “what is wrong” and how can we “fix it”. I have also realised this belief is the very foundation of allopathic medical practices at this time.

For example, when someone develops cancer many look for the problem and how to fix it. How many times have you heard comments such as: “I do not understand how they could have cancer, they have done so much spiritual work.”

I have even had a healer friend who developed a serious illness that required emergency surgery and she felt so guilty that she stopped practicing for three years because she felt so guilty that she did not see it coming and was unable to “fix it” herself. It took her many years to forgive herself for getting ‘sick’. She had a belief that there was something wrong with her to be so sick and not heal it herself.

As I have had my shares of physical body issues recently and have experienced this need to want to know what is “wrong” with me, I went to Mother Mary and asked her about this. Basically what she told me was that while we continue to believe something is wrong with this experience and we are judging it or are in resistance to it, then we do not learn and grow from it.

Here is what she had to say:

Dearest heart, within the great schism of the human heart there are many old beliefs and programs that you carry from generation to generation of your beings. Until this consciousness is resolved with love it will continue to affect humanity.

The old belief that is held there is something is wrong when illness or pain comes to you through your experiences arising out of the attachment that humanity holds to duality – black and white, good and evil. It sits in the hearts of all the sons and daughters of God’s light that are incarnated on the Earth and until it is filled with love and the understanding that all is divine no matter the experience then nothing is resolved in the physical plane.

And is this not the journey of each and every soul in the physical plane, dear heart? To experience through the physical all that has been created in the outer bodies of light that has forgotten is divinity. This belief that all must be as the ego mind sees perfection, dear heart, is an old attachment of the human mind.

Yet the human mind has forgotten what it is and from whence it came. The human mind has forgotten its spiritual nature, the true spirit that gives it form. It has forgotten that this spirit is untouched by what it experiences on the Earth in truth and remains the eternal self. Yet it experiences many things in the physical form. Yet dear one, it is to be remembered that the physical form of matter is not the eternal self, it is finite like all that sits in the form of matter. The human mind finds this truth greatly difficult to accept due to its attachment to duality and the physical form of matter and tries to apply its duality to the eternal self.

Yes, dear one, a child falls and grazes its knee and the soul cries and feels the child’s pain. Yet the spirit watches and is the witness of this experience. The human mind wants to create a story from this experience to try and understand why the child fell, and where the pain came from. It wants the story to have no pain or trauma for this is the ideal of perfection that the human mind holds. Yet in the physical realm to have joy you must have pain because you are in the physical body and the physical body sits in the realms of matter and duality. You are in this realm to experience all things, not simply what the human mind believes you must feel and experience through its fear and need to control.

And still the spirit watches, witnesses and learns. While the soul experiences and stumbles and falls again and again in many ways.

While the soul may judge this experience and wish it not to be so and the human mind creates many stories around this and believes it all must be fixed and made into its ideal of perfection, the spirit continues to observe and be the witness as it learns and evolves through every step of the physical process.

Yet in this process the human mind becomes greatly attached to its stories and ideals, while the soul often cowers in its pain and misunderstandings of the physical journey it is experiencing. And still the spirit watches and observes and learns.

The human mind wishes to control and interfere with what it is experiencing when the experience and story is not as it wishes it to be. Then the soul believes that something is wrong and it must be fixed because the human body is not in its perfection. When this occurs the soul forgets to open its bridge to its spirit and believes it is the physical self and may become lost in its pain.

And still the spirit watches, observes, learns and grows.

It is not until the human mind and the soul remember what they are in truth and open their bridge to the everlasting spirit of light from God’s heart that they begin to understand that each experience on the Earth is simply an experience of physical matter and in each experience there is a gift of learning and growth for the spirit.

Each experience is a step in the process of coming into the Mastery of physical matter. The spirit understands to have this mastery it cannot become physical matter and forget that which it is. To have mastery of the manifestation of light into physical matter requires detachment from matter, dear heart.

It requires each being to understand that every experience offers an opportunity to learn and grow and there is no need for stories and entrapments in wounds and suffering. The human mind is asked to realise that it is a master not a victim of the human experience. When it understands this then it understands that there is never anything wrong, nothing to judge, and nothing to fix. All is in divine and perfect order as it is. Accept the experience, let go your resistance to it and wanting it to be different and then become the observer.

When you choose to create judgement and believe that your experiences are wrong or sinful then you are sitting in duality of the physical density. When you sit in this miasma you cannot be the Master, only the victim and the participator trying to control from the human mind.

When you do this you cannot observe, learn and grow. You simply become trapped in the experience and begin to carry it on your shoulders as a burden that requires action. Yet truly all it needs is to be witnessed, loved and honoured as a step in your path to Mastery.

In’easa Mabu Ishtar , Channel from Mother Mary.

Namaste Dear Friends

With Love

Always

Mark

 

‘Wesak’ Another Painting from my Meditations

Published 29/11/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

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My Dear Friends,

Here, is my latest painting, this one is entitled ‘Wesak’, Wesak is the birthday of Lord Buddha and I saw the image of the flowering Lotus and the monks surrounding the lotus; standing in awe and gazing intently at the beauty during its transformation from bud to flower. The image was very clear in my Third Eye during my meditation a week or so ago ,and I could not dismiss the opportunity of getting the image from my minds-eye and on to paper so to say. I

I hope you like it and gain something from its content?

Namaste with Love

Always

Mark

 

I’ve been Painting from my Meditations again.

Published 26/11/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

My Dear Friends,

I,ve been away from my blog again for a while, but I have also been meditating a lot. During these deep meditations and channeling sessions, I have been experiencing very  focused images in my Third Eye, scenes that I must put down in a painting, a creative image representing the vision that I experienced in the moment, in the ‘Now’ .

I hope you like it?

This one is called Resurrection.

Namaste with Love

Always

Mark

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Are you Heart Centered?

Published 04/11/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

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My Dear Friends

A channel from Saint Germain

We welcome you in light and love. What a glorious day it is today. Open your heart and receive the love of All That Is and make manifest the light of who you are on the Earth today.

Expand, expand, expand from within and glow with your light and love, sending it out all around you this day so all may know its glory. All beings will then feel and understand the light and love you carry within you, all beings will understand that which you are and bask in its glory.

All beings will feel the love you emanate and in the doing so they will be filled themselves with God’s great love and light so they will be fulfilled within themselves.

If you choose this today then your light will touch the heart of others and assist them to connect to their own love and light within. For whenever another being shines their light all beings receive this within and are supported to connect to their own love and light. It is the mirror of who they are.

So we ask you all now to connect to your heart centres. Go deep within and connect to your heart centres, not your physical hearts, but the centre of your being that we call the heart centre. It is your temple within the place where you feel joy and peace, it is the place where all is calm and safe.

Find this place within you now and sit within it. Illuminate it, activate it, and align yourself with it.

Ask the mind not to create it for you because it is already there and it is for you to discover. Your mind cannot create this heart temple even though it may try to pretend it does. For in this space is a depth of frequency and light that cannot be created by your ego mind. It is the very Source of all that you are and cannot be replicated by your intellect, dear hearts.

You will know this heart centre when you find it. It is an old familiar place for you and you have sat in this place many times; yet you have simply forgotten it. Discover it today as you read this.

Make a choice to enter this place of light and love right now in your heart centre. At first, it may not be the bright light of which we speak, but just a dim light, but as you truly choose to reconnect more with your heart centre you will illuminate it greatly. This heart centre is the very centre of your inner being, the centre of all that you are. It is your Source. It is where your worlds are made manifest. It is the control centre of your great being, if you will. It is the driving centre of your consciousness.

If you are disconnected to your heart centre then your ego mind is driving the being that you are, and your being is rudderless and without the power of its light. So we ask you to choose right now to go within, breathe deeply through the nose and then out through the mouth and discover this beautiful place within you.

To make it easier, you may wish to connect to the cord of light that runs through the centre of your being – see this now in your vision. It is a cord of light that flows through the centre of your being. It connects to Source above you and to the heart of Mother Earth below. It is the channel for all energy to flow through your being. Connect with this cord now. See it above you connecting to Source/God/Goddess and then see it running all the way through your being and going deeply within the Earth connecting to the heart crystal of Mother Earth.

Stand in this cord of light and simply ask to be taken to your heart temple. If you let go then you will simply drop like being in an elevator to the centre of your being to your heart centre and then you may alight and enter this sacred place within you.

Sit in this place and expand your energy outwards to fill this temple. Keep expanding now. You are much greater than you think. Fill this place with your light and love. Feel the love of God/Goddess flow within you, then expand it outwards all around you.

Feel the peace and calm of the now in this space. Sit on the floor of your heart temple and expand yourself outwards to fill the temple, then even larger to fill the physical presence that you are. Then expand even larger still to fill the energy field around you at least 3 metres or more all around you.

Expand, expand and expand filling all with your light and love. In this space there will be no mind for it is impossible for the mind to operate in this expanded state.

In this state there will only be your inner presence, your divine being of light and love. Connect now with this being and understand the greatness of all that you are. Understand now your infinite light and love. Understand now your infinite wisdom and divinity, understand at this time that you are truly infinite, a world without end. This is who you are.

Understand that the illusion of smallness simply limits you in the third dimension. Choose to make manifest at this time who you are. Connect with your inner being and hand the driving wheel over to this part of you, surrendering the power of the mind and the ego now.

Allow yourself at this time to disconnect to the limitations of the third dimension and feel yourself completely fulfilled and filled with the light and love of God/Goddess.

Breathe deeply now and then ask what it is you need to know now, in this moment. Wait and listen for the response. You might wish to write this down so you do not forget it.  Discover how to communicate now with your inner being so wisdom and guidance are yours. Sit with this experience and within it. Listen with your heart fully open and filled with the light and love of God/Goddess and know that this is what you are in all your glory. Be in the now of All that Is.

As you sit in this divine moment you will feel yourself one with the slipstream of life itself and you will know the infinite glory of being One with All that Is. Is this not marvellous?

We offer you this gift today and ask that you share this with others. Share your love and light as you walk each day with others. Shine your light forth, do not hide it, do not pretend to be something you are not. Instead, choose to be all that you are in every waking moment and do not be limited by the mass consciousness of the third dimension. You are here to shine your light through this mass and to illuminate all things and beings.

Do this now with love in your heart and light in your energy field and share this with all.

Know that when you choose to walk the Earth in your true being, life becomes a wondrous journey. We thank you and bless you in love and light dear ones.

In’easa Mabu Ishtar

Namaste with Love

Always

Mark

Lost for Words

Published 03/11/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

My Dear friends,

I have been lost for words of late, I just can’t seem to summon up the words to write a post, I have however been doing a lot of painting and drawing, usually following on directly after my meditations. During these meditations I have received strong visions, pictures so vivid that once I come out of meditation I start to draw or paint. So in light of my lack of written posts, I have attached a few of my most recent paintings for you viewing, amusement and or comments.

So in light of my lack of written posts, I have attached a few of my most recent paintings for you viewing, amusement and or comments.

Blessings of love and light to you all

Namaste with Love

Always

Mark

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My Spiritual Journey (Continued)

Published 19/10/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

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My Dear Friends,

I thought it was about time I updated this page ‘My Spiritual Journey’ as I have neglected it for way, way too long 😦

Many things have happened to me over this past year or so, I have experienced many beautiful things and many things I would rather forget! However, I do realise that life as we know it is not a bed of roses, life comes with its up’s and it’s down’s, good and bad, happy and sad…Life, is as they say, ‘What it is’!. I

I do, however, also know that life is what you make it, life is how you view it and life is determined by your thoughts and your actions, we have choices each and every day, and most of the time we choose the easy route, the route with what we perceive is the least painful, the less challenging, and the one that sits closest to our comfort zone…But hey!, come on guys, the reality is all that you are searching for, and yearning for; sits just outside your comfort zone!….’Fact’

I, like many others am also comfortable within my comfort zone, I like to be alone most of the time, although I am a good socialiser and actually quite like it when I get off my backside and ‘Just Do It’!…But, I like many millions of others, I don’t often take the risks or walk outside my comfort zone because of fear, fear of the unknown…’Will it be ok? Will I be ok? What if?…Etc

My spiritual connection with my higher self, my sensitivity, my empathy and me healing energies have been gaining strength over the years, my intuition is really high and if I would only let go of my ego mind; fully, then abundance flows in my life, my life is filled with joy, happiness, love, and compassion, I go from strength to strength on ‘high’, high on life itself!…But it’s that damn word again ‘Fear’…that always holds me back, the fear of not being successful, the fear of letting people down, the fear of not generating enough income to survive and provide, the fear, the damn fear!…

My channeling has taken a back step of late because of fear, my daily meditations have taken a back step because of fear, my plans for my spiritual retreat have taken a back step or no step forward because of fear…..But why?….What is behind this fear?

So, yesterday I did a family constellation with a real Master, a lady who has been doing family constellations for more that 30 years, she teaches family constellations all around the world and yesterday I came out of my ‘Fear Closet’ and actually did one for myself…and it was amazing 🙂 She opened my eyes, and more importantly, opened my heart to what this fear was/is, she took me deeply into my own family constellation, we looked at all my family, my parents, their parents, brothers and sisters, aunties, uncles,children, grandchildren and the relationships within all these groups, we role-played my parents and as my heart started to open, out came the truths, the things that have been causing my fears, the things holding me back from living my life, from achieving the best from my life and holding me back from my future.

Now, obviously I’m not going to go into details of that was/is causing my fear but suffice to say I confronted them straight on, they were open right there before my eyes, I could see then, look them in the eyes and release them, and it felt great, I felt great….At last, my tears flowed, they flowed and they flowed, I met my fears head on, I took control, I gave the burdens that i have been carrying for years back to them as they were no longer mine to hold, and I stood tall; with a smile on my face and an open heart, once again ready to move forward with my life….

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So, my dear friends, don’t allow your fears to hold you back any longer, reach out to someone who can help, message me if you need support, because there is ‘Always’ a way to break free of the chains that hold you back…. 🙂

Namaste with Love

Always

Mark

So much Sunshine on a Cloudy Day!

Published 15/10/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

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My dear friends,

‘Today’s a new day and there is no sunshine’,…  but when I really open my eyes and look with my heart, I see sunshine everywhere 😄 

The trees 🌲 giving out their oxygen so we can breathe, bring a smile to my face. The flowers in the park sharing their fragrance with all those who stop and take in their beauty . The children running around with endless energy and enthusiasm their grandparents and parents sharing their games. Even the dark clouds passing overhead , heavy with rain and fit to burst, bring me joy as they will nourish the earth beneath my feet and quench the thirst of the trees and the flowers 🌹 

Sunshine is there for all to see , we just need to ‘stop’ for a while and take in the beauty that is ‘always’ around us 😄

I wish you all a very happy weekend

Namaste with love ❤️ 

Always 

Mark

Positivity

Published 14/10/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

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My Dear Friends,

Positivity.. noun. ….’The quality or state of being positive’. “Something that is positive’

What does this word really mean to me and to you?….Well, I believe that waking up with a positive attitude is really important to our lives, positivity brings us to where we want to be, it connects us to our heart, it connects us to our divine self, to our true self and it takes us away from our negative self, our ego-self!

We believe that things or people make us unhappy, but this is not accurate. We make ourselves unhappy. Very little is needed to make our lives happy; we all already possess this skill,  it’s all to do with our way of thinking.

Suffering and the onslaught of negativity and pain is brought on from our desires. Our desire to remain in the current state, to keep our youthful looks, our trim figure, our beautiful hair, our desire to gain wealth, desire to achieve greater control, greater power, more authority, our desire for sensual pleasures, for alcohol, drugs, food, money, and of course our desire to be happy….So we constantly strive to find this happiness everywhere, we seek it each and every day, we see people on the street, on the TV in the media who look happy in their big houses, their jobs, in their relationships..so we want the same, right?

I have learned that happiness starts within, it starts with our thoughts and our positivity helps is live happy contented lives, I know for sure that when my ego mind steps up, then my happiness and positivity levels drop through the floor. It eats away at you, controls you, and brings you down to its level, to where it wants you to be.

So, I have decided that ‘positivity’ is my new keyword, I have been through a lot, especially over these past few months. This has allowed my ego mind to play tricks on me, to put me in ‘The Victim’ mode, to make me feel sorry for myself, to allow me to have negative thoughts about all that I do, and all that happens to me. My negative emotions have taken control of my life…..and, ‘enough is enough’…I’m taking my life back,

……I’m taking my life back, I’m getting back in the saddle, taking up the reigns again for my life, I’m moving on, I’m holding my head high and ‘I’m happy 🙂

So, this morning when my dogs came in to wake me, I got up straight away, I greeted them with a smile as they wagged their tails and gave me their usual dose of unconditional love, I gave thanks in prayer to The Buddha, to the Ascended Masters, to My Parents, to my family and friends, and I vowed to continue my journey of self-discovery with a new vigour, with a bounce in my step, and with new love in my heart, a new love for me, for the person I am and for the person I will be.

Namaste with Love

Always

Mark

The Path of Service

Published 13/10/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

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My Dear Friends,

So often we confuse our path of service with serving the needs of our ego mind. It is not always easy to know the difference because when we follow our ego mind we may become very stuck in old programs – all that we already know or that others know – such as the programs of our family, friends and even our spiritual connections. These help to keep us in our comfort zone.

Yet, what we do not always understand is that we are here to be in service to the light of God within each one of us and to manifest it on the Earth in some way in accordance to Divine Will. We are here to be guided by our Divine Self, that part of God that sits in the heart of each one of us.

Saint Germain tells us: “There is one primary reason for you to be and that is to manifest the essence of God into the physical dimension.“

We are all emissaries of God’s light on the Earth and we are here to make that light manifest in the physical plane. How do we do that? Open to receive the guidance of our Divine Will because it will always show us the path. Yet are we truly listening and do we know the difference between our divine will and our ego will?

To offer service to our light we are asked to let go all the agenda’s we hold about God’s light – where it is, what it is, how it should look and what it does or does not do. More importantly, we are asked to let go all preconceived ideas about how it manifests in the physical plane. When we hold old programs and beliefs of what this is, then we can only serve through the ego mind.

Our ego mind does not know the heart of God’s light within us, it does not know the Divine Plan of God’s heart, it does not know the mystery of God’s heart and it is limited in what it ‘thinks’ it knows.

So when we serve our ego mind to manifest our path of service to the heart of God’s light we always serve the light with limitation and very often in illusion or distortion.

Yet how do we serve the light to manifest through us in each moment on the Earth? We all have keys and codes within us to assist this to occur. It is for each one of us to make a choice to go deeply within our hearts and connect with our divine light to find these keys so we may truly serve the light of God’s heart to be manifested on the Earth in alignment to the will of our Divine Self.

How we manifest God’s light will be different for each one of us because we are all unique codes of God’s heart. Yes, we are all one but each one of us makes up the whole and each one of us holds specific gifts and codes from the light of God’s heart to manifest on the Earth.

We do not need to know the how and why, all we are being asked to do is to open our hearts and allow the light of God’s heart to flow in our lives every day. When we do this the how and the why always takes care of itself through our alignment to Divine Will.

When we allow Divine Will to flow in our lives it will guide us on the path of service to our light that we are here to follow. Divine Will does not need to be told what to do or how it has to be done by your ego.

Choose to let go your need to control the mystery, let go your need to always know and interpret the heart of God’s light through your mind. Simply open your heart to serve your Divine Light and all will flow in perfect divine order.

In’Easa mabu Ishtar

Namaste with Love

Always

Mark

Pain, Heart Ache, Tears…and More!

Published 10/10/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

 

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My Dear Friends,

It has been many, many, long weeks since I have been able to place my fingers on this keyboard, to even attempt to write my blog…Words have left me, my heart has been broken and I have been struggling to get through my days and my nights.

The love of my life, my beautiful wife has decided to leave me 😦 There is no one else involved and we are still the best of friends, she has her own spiritual journey and her own pathway to follow, and her own needs to consider, and although this decision has truly broken my heart, I also respect her and I honour her decision.

Tears, endless buckets of tears have left my eyes, washed down my face and helped wash away my pain, my heart has missed so many beats, the slightest thought, song, tv program or word seems to set me off again, my beautiful dogs have given me endless cuddles, laid by my side while I have been crying and comforted me on endless occasions over these past few weeks, helping me move on with my life.

My own spirituality, my connection to my higher self, my pathway has been called into my thoughts each and every day, I quizzed myself endlessly, asking myself why!…and Where am I going with my life!

I read your comments, see and feel the love that you share, and I’m truly honoured by your sentiment and words of love, compassion, and support.

Where do I go from here?….Honestly, I don’t yet know!

Each day is a new day, a move towards the future, and whatever that holds for me.

One piece of positive news is after many years of procrastination, I actually went to Bhutan, hiked up some of the highest mountains, visited many amazing Buddhist Monasteries and Temples, met with Lamas and Rinpoche’s, meditated in the sacred sites and touched my heart with the Buddha in one of the most amazing experiences of my life….Future post…Maybe!…Watch this space.

Namaste with Love

Always

Mark

Lost for Words!

Published 27/08/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

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My Dear Friends,

I’m just lost for words!

I have been going through one of the most challenging times of my life and honestly I’m just lost for words……

Each day, for the last few months, I have wanted to put my fingers on this keyboard and spell out my feelings, to share with you what has been going on in my life, but when i go to do so, I’m just lost for words!

I cannot seem to conjure up the words that will make the sense of what my heart has been feeling, I cannot seem to express the brokenness of my heart through words alone, only tears can start to convey how I have been feeling.

Sometimes only my lovely dogs can understand, they come to me when I’m crying, they feel my pain and without any judgement, they lie by my side, no words are needed only their unconditional love, which is ‘Always’ there for me.

I look outside to the world that surrounds me, my family, my friends, and, sometimes I, see only me…The world continues on, I am just a blip on the landscape, a soul in transition, a source of energy that moves along with the movement of time, my life is my life, yes, people care for me but it’s my life and only I am responsible for it, only I can live it, only I can find the words to continue my way….

The world continues on, I am just a blip on the landscape, a soul in transition, a source of energy that moves along with the movement of time. My life is my life! Yes, people care for me, but it’s my life, and only I am responsible for it. Only I can live it, only I can find the words to convey how I feel, only I can feel the pain, only I ,…. Only I……..

As more tears run down my cheek, and, start to wash away my pain, only I can feel the hurt inside, only I can listen to my ego, only I,…. Only I….

Today is a new day, maybe today will bring me more joy….

Only I can make a difference, Only I can take away the pain….

Only I….

Namaste with Love

Always

Mark

 

A New Dawn A New Day

Published 28/07/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

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My Dear Friends,

A new dawn, a new day and I’m feeling good 🙂

Its funny what a simple great night’s sleep can do for you, it gives your mind and your body time to rest, to regenerate your cells and give you the energy to push you through another day. And today, I’m feeling good 🙂 Yesterday, I was caught up in the worries of the world, my empathy and compassion for our world and humanity was at its highest level, and although I have tried to manage my response to this level of empathy, it just got the better of me. Maybe it’s the ‘Human’ side of my being that reacted where my ‘Light being’ side of me would have stepped aside and said, ‘Yes, I see all that is going on in this world, now, let’s chill a little, send out our understanding, our love and compassion to the world and trust that they will receive our blessings and act accordingly’.

When I awoke this morning, I looked out of the window, I watched the sun rising across the sky and where I am in the East, I thought ‘I wonder what today will bring to our world as the sun rises from the East and continues to share its light across to West’? I wonder how many others will look up to the sun in wonderment and ask the same question! Each day brings us a new chance, a new life and a great opportunity to live!…To make a difference to not only our own lives but to the lives of others too, but it is our choice and who am I to try to tell people what to do, or how to act!….I am a nobody in the great scheme of things, I’m just little old me, yes I care about our world, yes, I can about the lives of every person on our planet, yes, I care about our environment and I want to see peace and harmony prevail….But, who am I?….This is a question I often ask myself…Who am I and ‘What can I do today that will really make a difference?

Well, today is a day, to smile, to hold my head up high, to share my love, my joy and my compassion to whoever wants and needs it, so here I am, a humble man living in Shanghai, sending out my love to you all 🙂

Blessings my friends,

Namaste, with Love

Always

Mark

Hollow Words Bring Us No Hope!

Published 27/07/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

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My Dear Friends,

It’s been a while since my fingers touched this keyboard and my heart has spoken words to you!

I, like many others, have been lost for words as we watch the unfolding dramas of our 21st Century world, our so-called civilised societies which have been caught up in wars for no reason, and whole communities within these civilised societies turned against each other in the name of race/colour and religious belief.

As I look at all that has unfolded over this past year alone, I shed tears, tears for mankind, tears for our world and tears for our future. As we continue to look at each other with hatred in our eyes, it is like we are caught up in an elaborate computer game in which the players manipulate the drones to follow their lead, to fight and to die at all costs, and move on to the next stage of the game in search of more power and wealth!….Elaborate computer game….Is it our real truth?

……….Elaborate computer game….Is it our real truth?

As we become more fixated with games or war, of power, of seeking greater riches and strength, we lose track of who were are!….We no longer socialise face-to-face, we only communicate in a digital world, we have, or are certainly losing our abilities to communicate, to connect to others with empathy, to see the pain in someone else’s eyes and to understand their point of view, as we push forward relentlessly to reach our own goals…to win at all costs!

I see hundreds of innocent men, women and children mowed down as they watched the fireworks and celebrated a national days holiday, I see thousands of displaced men women and children forced from their own countries due to war, to the greed for control and power, I see innocent families held hostage in a Church and a Priest murdered….All for what!….

Where, my friends, does it end!….

We are all born into this world equal, we have no belief systems, no hatred and no goals to attain…life takes all on different journies, some of the beliefs we take on are good, and some are bad….it’s a flip of a coin which pathway we decide to take, what we choose to believe and how we choose to behave…!

Anyone who is not working towards the truth is missing the whole point of living!

Your beliefs don’t make you a better person, Your behaviour does!

My heart sends out love and compassion to all those in pain, to all those who are suffering and to all those who need some love in their life.

Namaste, with Love

Always

Mark

 

 

 

 

 

Tiredness, sleepless nights and headaches

Published 31/05/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

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My Dear Friends,

Being a channel, a healer, and an empath; it is not always a life full of roses!

Some days you just go with the flow, everything comes easily, your life is full of abundance, all you have to do is set your intentions on something and along it comes, your days are filled with love, happiness, and joy and you lead a compassionate lifestyle in the service to ‘Source’, Humanity and Mother Earth’. And certainly for me; I get many up days and also many down days!

Some days I’m so tired I just want to sleep all day, even when I go to bed I’m constantly yawning, so much so that its hard to get to sleep as the tiredness is so overwhelming, I toss and turn as my being is filled with information, past lives flash before me, experiences are shown to me, connections to what I need to do tomorrow or in the future are paraded in front of me so I can recognise them when the time comes….

My head aches, I procrastinate, I multi-task without even realising I’m doing it, my tears flow like the flow of the Nile washing away the pains that are presented to me, people come and go, friendships come and go and relationships are a challenge at times because ‘We’ are difficult to understand. We try our best, we are loving and kind, we are considerate, compassionate and always available to all those in need…But and it is a large BUT….We are living in a human body and that takes its toll, we need to be loved, we need to love ourselves, we need like-minded people around us, we need Mother Nature so we can ground our energies, we need peace, we need kindness and most of all…We need understanding!

So as I come to the end of this short post my friends, I would like to send out my love to ALL my fellow Empaths, Channels, and Healers, may your days and nights be filled with Love, and may you be able to rest well and be well 🙂

Namaste with Love

Always

Mark

I Felt Inspired To Draw This Morning :)

Published 25/05/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

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My Dear Friends,

I have been receiving guidance in my meditations to pick up a pen, crayons and paint brushes, and draw what comes to my mind; one of which is above.

The images are part of messages that I have been receiving and I know there will be more to come, I have drawn, written and painted three in the past couple of evenings and I hope the messages contained; along with the images; bring you peace, happiness, and love.

Namaste with Love

Always

Mark

 

Becoming Who I am Really Meant To Be!

Published 19/05/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

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My Dear Friends,

‘Like earth, water, air, fire and space, may I be constantly a living support for infinite sentient beings’.

This is my wish

Namaste with Love

Always

Mark

What Story is Your Truth?

Published 13/05/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

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My Dear Friends,

A channeled message from Saint Germain

Dear heart, we come to say to you that you are not your stories, you are the pure light of your soul. Yet how many stories do you run in your mind that create your reality and become your truth, dear heart? Stories from the past and expectations of the future, each one traps you in its tentacles and you make it your truth and reality in the now moment. Yet, we say to you these are simply stories, experiences of the physical realm, but they are not that which you are.

These stories that you tell yourself are not the original blueprint of your being, but simply distortions you have created of this truth. Yet we say to you each story that you create will bring to you experiences and understandings on your journey to fully embracing the divine truth of you.

Your stories come from many places, dear heart, often from your father and mother, grandfather and grandmother, your peer groups, and your collective consciousness. You choose to play these stories as your truth, yet in truth they are but your illusions and your distraction.

Ask yourself dear one how many stories do you offer to yourself in your life? Do you understand how these stories control your reality and the way you perceive the life you are living in each moment of your existence?

Your human mind loves the stories and it has many attachments to these stories that you run as your truth. Yet, we ask you dear ones, are these stories truly the truth of your reality, or are they the illusions through which you are choosing in each moment to live?

When you run these stories you no longer live in the present moment, but simply live through the attachment of your experiences in the past or through an attachment to an expectation you hold of the future. And these may become great burdens and responsibilities that you carry, dear heart, which constantly drain all the energy you hold to live in the present moment in your truth and create your greatest potential.

We would ask you, dear heart, to consider the stories that you are running and living as your truth. As you consider them become aware of what these stories are creating for you. Does the story you are running as your truth right now serve you, to live in peace and harmony or does it create drama and chaos for you?

Is the story you are creating as your truth causing you to remain in struggle and limitation in your life or does it allow you to be fully present in the now and meet your potential? Does your story cause you to feel disempowered and in need of giving your power to another, believing that this other knows more than you and perhaps can see the truth of you?

Does your story ask you to see the God of creation outside of yourself and separate to you, causing you to feel disconnected to the Source of your being and unable to hold the light of yourself firmly in your own heart?

The human ego self is very attached to its stories and the drama and intrigue that is created through every story that you choose to live. It believes these stories give you the experiences of your reality, yet dear heart, how much does this serve you? Are you choosing to live through stories that cause you pain, struggle and suffering? And if this is true for you then have you asked yourself the purpose of this choice you have made? Do you understand, dear one, that your power lies in every choice you make and in each moment you can choose to change your story and live another experience?

Dear heart, we say to you that the story is only the story. Your attachment to the story may be your greatest limitation in your experience of the human physical existence. Being trapped in an old story of pain, struggle and limitation may not serve you to expand, grow and evolve the consciousness of your being in the present moment. It may only hold you trapped in the past or the future.

Often dear heart your ego mind chooses to attach to a story and play it again and again, even lifetime after lifetime because it judges the outcome that was created from that story. The ego was not happy or satisfied with the outcome of the original story and cannot accept it. Through the power of its will it chooses to change the outcome and so continues to play out that story over and over until it is satisfied. It may hold you enthralled for lifetimes in the same story replaying it over and over in many different ways searching to create a new outcome.

When this occurs dear heart you replay and relive the same story in many ways trying so hard to create a different ending to the story that you cannot accept as your experience.

We ask you, dear heart, have you not yet learned after so many experiences revolving around the same story again and again that the ending cannot be changed? This ending is the experience that you have been asked to master and learn. It is your Divine Plan. You are not being asked to change the story, dear one, you are being asked to accept this experience and the outcome that was created from it. Accept the ending of this story and learn what you are choosing not to learn. For in truth this is what you have come to learn in your mastery.

We ask you to consider this, beloved heart, and to ask yourself why you are choosing to continue to relive this old story in order to change the ending that you did not like. How many times have you already relived and replayed this old story, only to discover that the ending is always the same?

We say to you, dear heart, surrender to the Divine Plan. Let go your attachment to creating a different ending and accept with an open heart the experience of the original story and through this acceptance and embrace you may release your resistance to your mastery.

Only in this way, dear heart, may you truly move forward and evolve on your path. For in the letting go and acceptance of what is in this experience may you truly be free to create a new experience for yourself and step more into your mastery as a co-creator in the physical plane of the Earth.

Dear hearts, we watch you over and over again trapped in your stories and choosing to replay them over and over again. No longer present in the now but caught in your attachments to the past or your desires and needs for the future through your judgements and fear. Yet it is only in the present moment that you may know your truth and co-create through the power you hold.

We say to you there are five original stories that live through the human psyche in the physical existence. Your beautiful ego minds have created billions of different versions of these five original stories because of your resistance to letting go your free will and surrendering to the wisdom of the Divine Plan.

The five stories, beloved heart, include the first arrival of the soul consciousness into the physical plane of existence. At this time the soul feels like a newborn babe taken from the safety of the womb and feels great resistance to this. The soul consciousness may no longer feel the support of the living light of the Source heart (womb) that has nurtured it. In the voidal planes of existence, the soul is always held and surrounded by the Source consciousness just like a baby in the womb.

When the soul first comes into the physical consciousness of matter it becomes aware that it is no longer held in the voidal waters of light and like the babe it cries out to return to this loving nurturing support. When it does not the soul feels the loss of this deep connection to the heart of Source and instead of going within to find the seed of Source that has been planted in its heart, the soul searches all around it for that connection, yet often cannot find it.

This story is played out again and again in millions of different experiences in the physical plane beloved heart and is at the core of all stories of separation and disconnection that is held by humanity’s heart.

This first story then births the second story that creates the belief that you have been rejected from Source (cast out) and are not good enough to be held in the voidal waters of Source light connection and cannot call it to you through the vast planes of light. The soul cannot accept the Divine Plan and refuses to believe that it is meant to be in the physical experiences on the Earth learning its mastery of co-creation.  This is the first step in the soul’s free will in resistance to the Divine Plan.

Through the second original story the soul consciousness has created numerous experiences of pain and suffering in the human psyche beloved heart. These are constantly played out again and again through the many experiences you choose to create in your physical realm. This in turn often creates the belief that you have lost your power and are disempowered on the Earth. In turn this also creates the belief in being the victim and unable to create a reality for yourself that will nourish and voidal waters of light.

The third original story, dear heart, is the search for a replacement for the heart of Source. In this story the soul chooses to search for a new Source to nurture it and support it. The soul consciousness searches for this replacement in other souls, believing that their embrace, support and acceptance (what you may call love) will replace the memory they hold of the heart of Source. This original story has created trillions of experiences of ‘love’ and ‘conflict’ in your group consciousness, and has birthed all your books, songs and movies etc. as you began to sing and write of your experiences around this original story from the early times of your civilisations.

The fourth story was birthed from the third and of course is the story of loss and disappointment. It is here that beliefs of distrust, betrayal, disappointment, expectations unmet, frustration, rejection and loss of faith are birthed when the soul realises that the replacement it has chosen for the heart of Source is not what it is truly seeking.  In some way the soul comes to realise that this replacement cannot give it what it truly desires and so it believes it has been misled, or let down and it feels this loss deeply.

The fifth story begins only when the soul understands that all the other experiences have taken it outside of itself and the answer does not lie outside of itself. When the soul realises that the answer is embedded deeply within its own being then it begins its journey to go within and look for the answers that it seeks.

In this story the soul chooses to search for the heart of Source inside itself and proceeds to create many experiences around this story in its search for the seed of Source that is held within it. On this journey the soul is asked to look at all it has created in the physical plane of and around itself. This indeed may create many experiences of self-judgement and disconnection to the power of its light, as much as it creates experiences of reconnection to the light within the soul.

In this way the soul comes full circle and begins to understand and accepts the Divine Plan. The soul understands that to know mastery of the physical plane it needs to create this in the physical world of matter. It is asked to become the observer of its creations and the witness so it can master the wisdom of its creations without judgment and resistance. The soul comes to understand that through the Divine Plan and all that it experiences on the Earth in its search for the heart of Source it discovers the power of its light and the truth of what it is. When the soul chooses to surrender to this it comes to know its Mastery and no longer needs to believe it is a story for it no longer needs to confirm who and what it is.

Throughout each of these stories you are also learning about creation and your power to create in each moment the reality in which you live. As you live these original stories in the many experiences and permutations that you choose to create you are being shown the power of the light you hold within you to manifest your reality in each moment. Yet often because of these distortions to your original blueprint as a son and daughter of the God Source, you believe you must create alone and in separation to the heart of Source and the Divine Plan.

And so, dear heart, you continue to create in disconnection, in resistance and without the support that is always there for you until you move into the fifth story and begin to learn to co-create with the heart of Source in your full power of the light you are.

Each of these original five stories, dear heart, are played out in so many ways through the human psyche and cause you to create many experiences in your physical reality. Yet each one will eventually bring you back to the heart of Source within you.

So we ask you dear heart what story are you running and playing as your truth right now? Have you chosen to live through your divine blueprint or is it a distorted story of your divine truth?

Blessed be on your path to Mastery.

In’easa Mabu Ishtar.

 

Namaste with Love

Always

Mark

 

Feeling Tired, a Little Lost and Deflated!

Published 12/05/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

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My Dear Friends,

I’m not sure about you but these days I’m feeling very tired, a little lost and somewhat deflated and I have no idea why!

Over this past year or so I have dedicated my time to my own spiritual journey of self-discovery, I have connected with my channel, opened my channel pillar, connected with my previous lives, called in my aspects, settled old Karmic ties contracts and belief systems, dealt with many; many things that have held me back from reaching my full potential, and ,once again found and really connected with my own group heart, surrounded myself with and channels the teachings and codes from many Ascended Masters, Angels, Arch Angels, spiritual guides all whilst finding and really connecting with my higher selves and Divine Self…….Fantastic, yes!…..Amazing and uplifting experiences, yes!…..But now what?

Fantastic, yes!…..Amazing and uplifting experiences, yes!…..But now what?

Amazing and uplifting experiences, yes!…..But now what?

But now what?…….

Whilst I was going through this process, words came to me so easily, I could place my hands on my keyboard, close my eyes and my fingers would do the talking, words would appear on my laptop screen and I would be amazed at what I read at the end, I found myself connected to many projects, opened my heart fully to everyone and everything that needed my help. However, since I finished this process, I now feel lost, words are hard to find and I really feel tired and lethargic, somewhat at a loss with my humble human life and existence….!

Why?

I think the answer is I’m integrating all that I have experienced, the codes, the languages, the energies and the frequencies I received during the year-long process are now being absorbed, finding their place in my physical form, allowing the information to connect with and to my human experience in this lifetime, and like a library book having codes associated with the process, the teachings and content of the learnings tagged on the cover for storage in my mind and ease of use when the need arises in the future!….

I really need to take this time for this process to happen fully, even though I’m desperately wanting to move forward to my next challenge, I want to re-connect to my higher selves, my divine self and all these wonderful masters and guides that have been with me for this past year, to once again sit amongst their presence, to feel their energies, to absorb their knowledge and to put this knowledge and learning to good use here in this lifetime…But as I was told by Saint Germain, “Dear One, all will come to you in the fullness of time, there is no time, time is but a word used bu Hu-manity, so do not place your learnings on what you call ‘time’, you are a healer, you always have been a healer and this lifetime is now once again connecting so you can continue your learning and connect with the knowledge that your collective group heart is here to make manifest and bestow on this earth and for the benefit of humanity. Dear One, clear your mind of all its

………But as I was told by Saint Germain,……. “Dear One, all will come to you in the fullness of time, there is no time, time is but a word used by Humanity, so do not place your learnings on what you call ‘time’, you are a healer, you have always been a healer, and through this lifetime you are now blessed once again with the openness to re- connect with the knowledge and healing libraries within the many dimensions of all space and time; so that you can continue your learning and connect with the knowledge that your collective group heart is here to make manifest and bestow upon this earth, and for the benefit of humanity. Dear One clear your mind of all its obstacles, be at peace with yourself, open your heart to receive the light, the codes, the learning and the messages that are waiting for you, allow for this knowledge to enter into your light stream and ground this knowledge deep into Mother Earth, make it manifest and share it with all that come forth to you”.

So my dear friends, here I am, feeling tired, a little lost and a little deflated but I know all will come good, I am still on my journey and I’m willing to be of service to mankind as is meant to be!

Namaste, with Love

Always

Mark

 

 

Lost then Found

Published 06/05/2016 by inspiringyourspirit

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Lost then Found

Lost in the spinning vortex of my mind

Thoughts rushing around like clothes in a washing machine

Thought after thought, never ending

Where do I begin, what do I do

 

Time stands still as my thoughts take control

I’m going nowhere fast

It’s like I’m standing at the crossroads of my life

Stuck, no idea which way to go

 

How do I break free, know which road to choose

Is it left, is it right or is it straight ahead

My life is in tatters as my mind keeps telling me

You’r useless, no use to anyone

 

I’m tired, I’m lonely, I’m sad with my life

Is my mind right or can I break free

Free from these chains holding on to me

Show me the light to please set me free

 

From a flicker to a flame

The light breaks the darkness of my life

The shadows begin to disappear

And new life blooms in front of my eyes

 

New life, new beauty, new focus

Beyond the shadows and darkness is life

Life for you, a new day is dawning

Breaking free now and rushing forth

 

On to tomorrow, setting myself free

Living in the now as it’s meant to be

Understanding self, whom I’m meant to be

A joy, at last now I know who I am

 

A being of light, a son, a brother, a husband, a friend

In service to humanity

At peace with the world

Seeing joy and in gratitude for each day

 

Love, peace and kindness to all beings

 

Namaste with Love

Always

Mark

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